A dose of pointless bitching. Yes, I know this is trivial in comparison to others' recent topics.

Now. I know life isn't fair at all. If it were that, then it'd be communism. But in reality, it's just been frustratingly unfair against my favor. Especially in the last week, where it seems that some divine power or whatever just fucking hates me.

How was this determined?

1: Squiggy, my cockatoo with a penchant for stripping the wires of PS2 controller cords, decided he liked a go with the Audio/Video cable array on the PS2 itself. Needless to say, the PS2 lost, badly, and until I get a new damn A/V array, or find the reported spare one that's somewhere around this house, I effectively have no usable PS2. This leaves me bored easily. Me being bored means that I get pissy, very easily.

2: My computer decides it has to get in on the inactivity, it seems. It seems that whenever I play any sort of game, no matter the size, the computer shuts the hell down eventually. Either that, or freezes up. For god's sake, can I at least have a computer that WORKS?! I know it's really hard to ask when you want a high-class rig with over 100 GB of memory and all...but another thing--those Guilty Gear XX videos aren't all archived somewhere, and given that I've got roughly 2 gigs of them or so, they're likely causing issues, but the problem is that what's available and what isn't is dynamic in nature. Now, admittedly, my mother's got issues with time right now, what with work, but to be honest, it seems as if she wants me to do the housework for her. If she wants to get the damn thing SOLD, she should work on it, rather than quitting after getting it halfway done and playing Morrowind for 5 hours straight while I do bird maintenance/lawnmowing/etc. And then yells at me for doing a halfassed job just because it wasn't to her specifications, though I'm not exactly being PAID for this crap. Her agreement to get me the computer once the damn house is sold is not going to work. I've already bent over backwards enough just to put up with bullshit such as the two private schools, as well as her tendencies to treat me as an emotional punching bag as of late (Just because my brother left and she can't do anything of the such to my father if he doesn't want to put up with it.), nevermind her promise that she seemed to make with the INTENTIONS of breaking. It is quite hard to enjoy BEING with someone like that, you know. Oh, and the fact that she still thinks I'm "not responsible enough to live on my own". Last I checked, willingness to help is not a requirement or a measurement. Neither is willingness to clean up after other people's (or things') messes that are forced on you.

3:Seriously. Life is annoying. But the LAST thing I need is people trying to force me to conform. Which seems to be what my mother is attempting to do with her wanting to give me a haircut. Yes, I want my hair to be long. BIG FUCKING DEAL. If you have a problem with it, maybe you SHOULD let me be. All I can say is that I'm trying to add some variety to myself. If looking how I want makes me end up looking like a member of a Visual Kei band in the process? So what? It's my damn choice. It doesn't directly affect someone, so they have no right to dictate what I should and shouldn't wear, or what I should and shouldn't do with myself.

For this reason, once I get the money, I'm getting a damn tattoo. Likely on my upper back. Justice's Gear Symbol thingy. Actually, I think it'd be more fun to get it on my forehead, but my mother would throw a total hissy fit.

...maybe I should wait for Sophomore year for that.

Minor irritations:
--...Can the dice at least cut me some fucking slack? They've been denying me good rolls in any combat situation for a couple of WEEKS now. I know that not everyone's supposed to win, but for god's sake, I REFUSE to play the worthless comic-relief guy who is somehow funny in how he gets his ass kicked no matter what. I just desire some actually GOOD rolls in RPs, rather than being utterly humiliated and rendered as ineffectual out of reality as I am in it.

--You'd THINK more video games would have suitable rock music. You really would. But as it seems, it's nearly impossible to find any such music for the game I'm trying to make (albeit slowly). Which reminds me that, annoyingly, sprites are likely also going to be in really fucking short supply given the setting--modern/futuristic games are not often done and while there's god knows how much stuff for the next game of "SWORD SAGA!!!:legend of the super sword!!!", for anything else, there's almost nothing. I'm not deterred at all, really. Just REALLY fucking irritated.

Note that by sprites, I mainly mean combat and portrait sprites. I can jack out most kinds of sprites via editing stuff, and stuff like wings will likely not show up anyway. Enemies and other sprites for combat or portraits, though...>.< The amount of detail necessary for such is frustrating, and beyond my reach entirely. I just hope I can find either a set of suitable sprites, or someone who'd be willing to devote the time and effort to make such (likely necessary on the PC portraits)


...Life is frustrating. Is it any wonder that I hate reality so much as to constantly run from it?